Go! Go! Power Rangers!

Alright, so I set up a purevolume for my music. It is like, here:

http://www.purevolume.com/Elterago

I already got a song put up and everything. Are you impressed? I need more followers.

I'm all aloooooooone

There's no one heeeeeeere besiiiiiiide meeeeeeee

OK so my parents went on a cruise and I have the house to myself. I was gonna have a big party but apparently the amazing timing of this whole deal means nobody can come so I basically was bored shitless last night.

Now I gotta go to a wedding an hour away where there will be like... 3 people I know.  That's at 6. What's the over-under on me getting tired of crap and leaving by 8?

Good decisions that make you feel good

http://espn.go.com/blog/afcnorth/post?id=4276

HALLELUJAH, PRAISE THE LORD AND PASS THE PIGSKIN

One Freaking Job And You Can't Do It

Okay so I'm almost never in favor of someone losing their job, honestly I'm not.

But if someone is just plain incompetent, and I mean can NOT do their job on a consistent basis or at all, then I'm sorry, that person needs to go.

That brings me to the question... Who sucks more? The St. Louis Rams or Cincinnati Bengals long snapper Brad St. Louis?

Honestly, he gets paid a couple hundred thousand dollars a year to do ONE THING on a football field. It's the only thing he practices, it's the only thing he does on the team, he can't get distracted by other duties... He just snaps the ball behind him and gets in the way of someone who's trying to run past him. And he can't do his one simple thing that at least 31 other people in the league can do on a consistent basis. There has GOT to be a long snapper that's out of work! Or hell, maybe one of our tackles or centers can fill in. It'll free up a roster spot and we can go pick up DeDe Dorsey (oh wait he's busy running over people as maybe the most talented player in the new UFL. I should check that out sometime, I think I get the Versus network on dish)!

If he's not gone by next week then I suggest Cincinnati holds a public, open tryout. We could even make a reality TV show out of it... Long Snapper Idol. So You Think You Can Long Snap. Whatever. But we pay taxes to fund the Cincinnati Bengals football stadium which houses our home team, and as such we should have certain expectations of the product they put on that field. One of these days an errant snap is going to cost the Bengals a game, and in today's league winning is money. The more you win, the easier it is to market the team as a product, and the more money you can make. It's as simple as that.

So Brad St. Louis, I wish you luck in your future no matter what you do. Go start a public speech campaign as a living example of why college athletes should finish their degrees before going pro.

That having been said... Who-Dey! 3-0 in the AFC North. Who'd've thunk it?

zuuuuuune

hahah i'm typing this from my zune hd. totally sweeeeeeeeeeet.

We had a deal.

I move in, you quit nagging.

We had a deal, mother. And you broke it so predictably.

I need to get a place. Fast.

Thank you

Thanks for the advice, whomever gave it.

Tomorrow's the day where I release a big application that I wrote on an incredibly shortened deadline and watch in horror as the inevitable deluge of bugs get dropped on my head.

...This is just a pre-emptive FML blog.

Life Update

Hey everyone.

Another day, another 11 hour shift at work. This is the fourth one in the last three weeks. How long am I going to put up with this crap?

Ehhh. Anyway. I'm kind of at a point in my life where I feel like I'm throwing away any bit of time I waste being unhappy, but at the same time I'm unable to really force myself to take the risk of interviewing elsewhere or buying a house or even moving out... My problem is I don't know when to stop waiting for the next thing and finally act without fear of repercussions. It's one of the curses of being into technology but also very conscious of purchasing... You don't want to buy something 'cause you know in three months it'll already be outdated.

It's kind of the same thing. I don't know if I want to get another job if I'm not sure my situation will improve. 

A little background: I am not one of those kids who was a nerd all through school and always knew he wanted to deal with computers for his career. I didn't even know what the heck I was gonna do until my senior year in high school, and even then I wasn't sure. When I went to the University of Cincinnati, I swore everyday to myself that that was the right choice and it was where I wanted to be... But sometimes, on particularly frustrating days, those nagging thoughts would sneak in...

Do I really want to do this?

Am I just convincing myself that I do so I don't have to start over?

Am I wasting my time? Did I waste all this time?

Those thoughts were always there in the back of my mind, and now they're coming back full force. Have I completely stunted my life by following a path I never truly wanted, never straying for fear of realizing all this time has been a complete lie?

What if I'm just afraid of being smart? I've secretly always loathed myself for being intelligent. I hated being different. I hated the way my classmates saw me... I hated the way I was treated by my family, my friends, everyone. I just wanted to be normal. And the worst part is, I've only disclosed this one time, and the person I told thought I was being selfish and pathetic for having such TERRIBLE PROBLEMS like being smart.

What if I'm just afraid of improvement in general? I gained a few pounds in college that I'd like to lose, but I never do anything about it. I know I should get certified and things like that but it feels like I never have time, and ditto with the MBA I promised myself and others that I would get.

Or maybe I'm afraid of failure. What if I try these things and can't succeed? What if I give it my best but still come up short? I do not take failure lightly. 

Fuck. I don't know what the hell I'm doing.

Furry mosh pit!

OK GUYS FURRY MOSHPIT

READY SET GO

So yeah I'm working on getting music more involved in this blog. The above song's really good, and the video is very well executed on a technical level. It's an exciting song with an exciting video and people moshing in fursuits just makes me kind of giggle.

I'm still in the middle of a killer writer's block, but I want to overcome that this weekend! Because I have almost nothing planned. Maybe I'll just make a new account on purevolume or something to share my songs on this blog, or... I don't know. Does anyone have any ideas?

Anyway! Time for Monday Night Football. I predict it won't even be a game by halftime, but I have no idea at all who's going to be up four touchdowns.

Have a wonderful evening.

OH MY GOD YES

OMG OMG OMG OMG WE FINALLY FUCKING DID IT!

WHO DEY

Obligatory Sunday Football Blog Post.

Oh man, Bearcats. Heck yes. With all those top 10 teams losing yesterday... Oh it would only sweeten things if the Bengals could get off their Steeler Schneid at 4 today.

Good evening, readers.

I am in a pickle.

Apparently people in my skillset are in demand and also hard to find in Cincinnati right now. I'm stuck at a job I don't particularly like, but I've only been there for three months and I'm afraid if I leave it'll look like I job jump. I got an email from a recruiter listing out all these nice, flashy jobs, but they all say 'Senior' behind the job title and my less than three years of experience is making me question whether it's worth risking my current job interviewing for the others.

Also, there have been hints that I might be taking over my manager's position if he goes and accepts another position. While I don't know how likely this is seeing as my manager is a manipulative snake, I feel like I should at least wait until end of year reviews to see how things go... See if my career path even forks out of my current job, let alone if I should take the road out.

Or maybe there's not supposed to even be a road. Maybe I'm supposed to go off the road. But then again maybe I'm already off the damn thing.

Fuck this road metaphor. I could be letting a serious opportunity pass me up no matter which way I decide to go.

How the hell am I supposed to get more blog followers with posts like THIS

Ssssssthk!

That's the sound my brain just made, just now!

I worked an 11 hour day today and my brain is completely fried. My dad came in (Remember? I live with my parents!) and asked me to work on some dumb fucking wordpress website for something he does on the side and of course I said yes because I am a pushover for my parents. He bought me Skyline chili today, anyway, so okay whatever, right?

And now, inexplicably, I am wired. Still can't get over my songwriter's block though.

Musical Frustration

(Two posts in one day?! ALL ABOARD THE BLOGMENTUM TRAIN CHOO CHOO)

You know, I kind of wanted to make this blog partially about my music, but I'll be damned if I haven't had a terrible case of writer's block in terms of songwriting. It seems like I can throw together some pretty cool riffs here and there but I can never manage to make a full song out of them... And if I do it just happens to sound like early 90's Offspring and doesn't quite fit into the kind of music I want to make. My influences are showing wayyyyyy too much, in other words.

Also, since I'm trying to keep this blog fairly anonymous (beyond a shadow of doubt anyway), I am unsure how to share my music with you. So that's something I'm still gonna have to figure out.

Where are those 90's-era UNDER CONSTRUCTION animated gifs when you need them? My blog is in need of pizzaz. 

...Mm. Now I'm suddenly in need of pizzas.

I'll take it!

Okay, been clutching at my chest ever since the final gun. It's still beating. 31-24 Bengals! WHOOT.

Countdown to Cincinnati Football Disappointment... 7 days and counting!

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Wonder where UC will be ranked NOW.

Current Cincinnati Football Psyched Level: High

Countdown to Cincinnati Football Crushing Disappointment: T minus less than 13 hours and counting...

Blogmentum

Hey y'all. It's hump day at Blogging Is Still Honest, which means nothing at all so happy Wednesday.

Alright! So I figure on occasion I should put some culture in this here godless bloggerverse.

Everyone who reads this blog should listen to The Process of Belief, an album by Bad Religion. It'll change your life.

If you must skip most of the album, at least listen to the songs "Sorrow" and "The Defense."

Post your feelings in the comments section!!

S (s, s, s) A (a, a, a) F (f, f, f)...

E (e, e, e) T (t, t, t) Y (y, y, y) Safety (safe, safe, safe) Dance! (dance, dance, dance)

Okay so I was having an outrageously bad day, but on my way home I was listening to the radio and the mother fucking SAFETY DANCE came on. I have no idea how one is capable of having a bad day while listening to the Safety Dance. Take off your hats for the Men Without Hats!

So yeah. I've been at my job for nearly three months now and I already kind of hate it. I don't want to go into too many specifics because hey. You never know who else has caught on to this WWW thing. Could be my boss! I heard he has a Facetwitters.

In any event, I have reason to believe that I could move up the ladder relatively quickly at my company but at the same time I don't know if moving up the ladder will make me any happier, or what kind of things I'd have to do in order to do so. Now, I'm all for my career being boosted, but I'm not at the point where I'm ready to sacrifice my dignity to do so -- I've already been micromanaged on how I need to suck up more at this company (among other things), and that kind of makes me ill.

Whatever. There's a Metallica concert tomorrow and I'm super upset that I'm not going. But after you've seen Metallica twice from far away you need to see them up close and I am not ready to shell out that kind of cash for a concert right at this point in time.

Well, that's all for today. Monday Night Football starts soon, but I doubt I'll be up to see the finish of Chargers/Raiders. Let's just hope Philip Rivers explodes tonight; I think if he gets 25 points without throwing touchdowns to Gates I'm in the clear for my fantasy league.

Oh and P.S. Thanks to Gauss Jordan of Augmented Identity for linking to me. Hopefully y'all find me at least a little interesting. I'm just getting in to the momentum of blogging (which will henceforth be known in this blog as blogmentum) and can use any tips to help make me more readable.

Rather cathartic, this.

Bengals

Dudes, wtf.

Cincinnati Football

Whewt!

70-3 poundings of FCS schools make me a happy camper. I felt like I was a Florida fan for a second.

Also, both OSUs lost! Hooray! The Ohio State/USC one a good game, though. Definitely glad I got to catch the second half. I still can't believe Oklahoma State lost to fucking Houston. That cracks me right up. Ah well.

So yeah, between the Cincinnati high schools and the University of Cincinnati, I wonder if it's going to have a positive effect on the Bengals. I guess we'll find out tomorrow. Who-Dey! and good night.

A little background

Alright, as some of my readers (working on getting more of those. How?) probably already know, I live with my parents again.

Note the word 'again' in there. It's not like I still live with my parents. I moved out for college, and now that I've finished up I moved back in until I can save up enough money for a house of my own.

It's really not all that bad. Basically free room and board, free food, two full rooms of my own... All I've got to do is pay car insurance and not be a disturbance. If only I weren't, you know. Living with my parents.

Okay so the point here is I'm stuck living with my parents and that has obvious downfalls... e.g. I'm around all the time for them to nag and bug me all they want, which they couldn't do while I was in college. I've been living here since the first of the month and I'm already getting antsy to leave. Anyone who ever said once you move out from your parents', moving back in is near impossible was right. One of the reasons I have this blog is so I don't explode. I have to play the politics game with my own parents.

Next episode: Either music, hobbies, or work. I don't know. 

Dear Mother,

This is just survival.

Hey, everyone... Or no one, I guess, right now. This is my blog. I've never blogged before. I feel like I'm 9 years old again and getting on an AOL chat room for the first time, except this time I'm only talking to myself and my parents aren't watching over my shoulder to make sure I'm not talking about touching pee pees.

A little about the blog title I guess. It's from a song called Walking is Still Honest by Against Me!. The double punctuation isn't a mistake; there's actually an exclamation point at the end of the band name. Agh, this gives you some insight as to why I need a blog -- I'm practically overexplaining my punctuation before anyone's even complained or even read the fucking blog to have a reason to complain. This is my psyche. This is my life. In any case, it's a good song and everyone should give one of the versions of it a listen.

This'll probably be about anything I have on my mind that I consider worth telling the ether[net?] about. Er, about which I consider worth telling. Is grammar really that important in blogs? Someone let me know.

I won't tell you my life story, or even my current state. After all, I've got to have something to blog about in the next post, right?

So, potential readers! Your assignment for tonight is to teach me how to blog. Am I doing alright? Let me know. Seeya!